what version of you are you?
Cloning was a big thing a couple of years ago. Even the covid virus got into cloning with the new strains coming about (too soon?). Everyday we experience a new version of ourselves. Last week I felt sick. I was scheduled to travel and what I now realize was anxiety caused me to have a headache, and feel sick. I have not experienced a version of myself that was averse to traveling before.
In my opinion, we are all like Jekyll and Hyde. We have multiple moods, react to occurrences differently, and evolve every single day.
The context right now is not normal and I am getting tired of writing and reading about life’s deviation from nomalcy. I am also tired of being tired, which has led me to ask:
Who am I in the midst of chaos? Who am I when things don’t go my way? Who am I when I feel fear? Who am I when I experience loss?
I don’t have pointers this week. I don’t have my advisor hat on. I am just thinking on paper. And my thoughts have led me to the concept of conditioning. I am thinking about and trying to answer the question: what is the pandemic version of me? I realize that covid is affecting me in more ways than I can count. But for some people it’s much worse. Their livelihoods are affected, their health is on the line, and they are experiencing a tough time. How then am I conditioning myself at this time?
I am doing so gradually and through conditioning. I am doing so by taking note of every thought and watching what information I take in.
2 Corinthians 10:5
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
Here’s something I wrote a few years ago:
Conditioning is synonymous to the phrase ‘gradual training process’ Have you ever gone on a 100 metre dash after bumming throughout a holiday? You feel like you might faint, because during the holiday, you watched TV and barely walked anywhere and then you’re back to school and it’s time to dash, but you cannot because your body is not in the right condition.You must realize that the more you do something the easier it becomes for you. Conditioning is required to fast, study, sleep, and so many other things.
If you must search, search for a way to be closer to God. If you most feel, feel love for God and others around you. If you must focus or fixate, fixate on achieving great things for God.
In essence, I hope your focus is not on the current situation but on God and who he created you to be. Keep taking jabs at smiling, dancing, seizing each day, and focusing on Jesus. This conditioning will be worthwhile.
Oluwatomisin Oyegoke